Doesn't smell right.

First night in the "new" place down.  Once I finally fell asleep I slept decent.  It just took me so long to fall asleep that I didn't sleep long enough.

Problem is..... I had a small bout of tears.   GFB and BFB are going about life without me.  And I'm missing things.  The inaugural game of cards against humanity, I should have been there.  Vegging on the couch, I should have been there.  Goodnight kisses, I don't get any.  And I want them. My bed also doesn't smell right,  ( mind you , at the urging of GFB, BFB changed deodorant and body wash because she "didn't like the smell", and now he doesn't smell right either.) it doesn't sound right, ( no snoring, and inhaled to be soothed by the snoring, and it doesn't feel right for a bunch of reasons.  I miss the arms around me when I snuggle into bed, I miss the cold hands, I miss the scratchy face kissing me when BFB gets home in the morning. (And that whole "I couldn't be bothered to shave look coupled with that smile and blue eyes, HELLA SEXY!, although he'd probably laugh and call me crazy) I miss.... Well I miss everything.

365 grateful day 1 ( again)

Ok.. I'm going to try this again.  I'm terrible at follow through, but I'm only disappointing myself.  No one reads this crap anyway.   No one even KNOWS about it.  I only write it for me really.  So......

I'm grateful for my job...(hopefully I still feel that way come Friday!) and I'm grateful for the wonderful people in my life that support what I'm doing, even if it's not easy on our life together.  I'm also grateful for the coffee that will be getting me through my day today since I'm clearly not sleeping.

A new "new" adventure

I've just moved for the 5 th time in 18 months.  Ok it's not really a move... I still live with BFBand GFB but took a travel nursing assignment in the almost middle of nowhere, so I have a temporary crash pad to sleep and eat when I'm not at home.  

On other fronts... I finally got to test shoot a Nano on Saturday.  I definitely liked it, and after fixing my air conditioning (DONT ASK) it'll probably be my next purchase.

#365 day 2

Grateful for the abundance of things I can be grateful for.  Good coffee, bacon, a comfy warm person (or two) to snuggle with at night, a job to go to and make decent money at, and this weekend, the opportunity to make a new friend.  I am blessed in everything I've been given this year.

#365 grateful day 1

I'm grateful for the wonderful people I have in my life and feel blessed to love them and be loved by them.

Oops.... No I didn't forget, I was just busy.

Ok, that's really a lie.  I wasn't really all that busy.  I didn't forget, but I guess I was just lazy.  Last time I mentioned finally deciding to make the move to Kansas City.  That was just a little over 2 months ago.  I've been all moved for about 3 1/2 weeks.  So things moved REALLY FAST once I decided to move. 
I actually start work on Monday.  I'm kind of grateful for that because I'm actually pretty bored at this point.  I think this is the longest in my adult life that I haven't been to work.  I'm excited but still a bit scared to go back to work.  Not only is it new people, it's a completely new facility.  I'm headed back to the ICU, and hopefully eventually to a position where I get to do both ICU and ER. 
Relationship wise things are great.  things aren't always easy and there are definitely things to work on, but overall I'm pretty damn happy. 
I'm back doing Crossfit again.  Thank you CROSSFIT BLUE SPRINGS!!!  And Becky and I are doing a Blacklight run close to home this August.  I'm back to running again, and I'm eternally grateful that the weather here is getting nicer.  I'm not a huge fan of the whole Severe thunderstorm and Tonado thing, but I'm still of the opinion that it's better than 14 plus feet of snow a year!
I've been reading all the FB posts from people doing the #365 grateful project.  Now I'm not one to keep going on something like that all year.  but I guess I'm going to try.  So my next post will be day 1.  And I'll TRY to do one every day.  They'll be separate from any other posts and may only be a word or two.  but I'm going to try.

Everything is coming together

It's been FaceBook official for a few days now.  I am moving to Kansas City.  Actually a small suburb about 40 minutes east thereof.  I have a new job, and movers are scheduled to come pick up whatever stuff I'm taking with me.  and my grandparents house is now on the market.


I am hugely excited.  I am also freaking out!  This is a huge life change, and a complicated situation to say the least.  This past year and a half has been full of huge life changes for me.  Things have been a giant roller coaster, and I'm looking forward to ending the emotional rollercoaster ride.


I'm leaving to be with people I love with all of my heart.  It's not going to be easy.  Not for any of us. But with a lot of love and a lot of patience we will all figure it out together.